Farewell my fair weather friend, our relationship was overcast from the beginning except for the occasional clear skies, you were seasonal and I was yearly. I should of seen the cold front coming, for I was warned: “Don’t forget your coat, you never know what the weather is going to be like later,” mom would scream. The signs were all there, but they were unrecognizable in the darkness, for the clouds have been hiding the sunlight for the majority of our relationship. In the beginning I thought my coat was all that I needed for our journey of friendship, for we have seen many rainbows together, Gods blessing for weathering the storms. Mother warned me, but Mother Nature showed me, she showed me that she can become cold hearted overnight without a freeze warning. The day started out a cool sixty-five degrees and somewhat overcast, and there was no freeze warning in the foreseeable future, but by nightfall we had an overnight low where the temperature fell to just about over freezing…….
“I thought my coat was all that I needed, I thought my coat would weather the storm. I thought my coat was all that I needed, but my coat was not enough!”
Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold.
Well the time has come for my two year throat cancer check up, if they give me the all clear I will not have to get another for five years. I feel good, but my thoughts are beginning their journey to a familiar place, a place that they know all to well, a place called fear. It has been hard for me to sleep, it has been hard for me to think, and it has been hard for me to write, as memories from my past continue to haunt me.
Three years ago….
“I am sorry to inform you Mr. O’Bannon, but you have stage 4 for throat cancer.”
As my thoughts continue their faithless journey I begin to pray:
Lord I thank you for the last three years of my life, for I know that I have been blessed with continued preservation. Lord I pray that you set me free from the worldly fears that hold me hostage. Lord I grab my Bible in my moment of weakness, for I know that Your scriptures and my fears cannot occupy the same space. As I open my Bible my moment of weakness is no more, for Your scriptures give me a strength that this world knows not of.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my right hand.
For the Lord Himself shall descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trumpet of God. And the dead in Christ will rise first. Then we who are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And thus we shall always be with the Lord.
“But I say to you who hear, love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who abuse you.”
I could of left this piece as is, but I will always share my whole truth. I have been having a hard time accepting His truth within this scripture, for the world and its racial divide makes it hard for me to gain understanding as it pertains to having love for all, as there are many who choose to hate me, curse me, and abuse me, for I am a Black man.As I continue to study His scriptures I am growing spiritually from within, I am becoming, for the Lord and His words of truth has enlightened me far beyond this world and its unholy racism.
Seek the Lord while He may be found; call on Him while He is near. Let the wicked forsake their ways and the unrighteous their thoughts. Let them turn to the Lord and He will have mercy on them, and to our God, for He will freely pardon.