“Our children are the ones who are effected by this most, for their young minds are empty vessels that need to be filled with knowledge of self. Our children need to be able to retain information that is vital for their survival in a world that does not view them as equal. Our children cannot afford to wander aimlessly in a state of euphoria as others do, for it will adversely effect their mental development as it pertains to assertiveness, thinking clearly, memory recall, and problem solving.”
Be sober minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion seeking someone to devour.
1 Peter 5:8
“I don’t understand, people of all colors are using marijuana now, young and old. I just do not see how color plays a part in this at all, I am sorry, but I just do not see how color is relevant in this situation.”
“I know you don’t, you are blind to what does not effect you, but I see it clearly, for it is forced upon me daily. Whether it is television, movies, or my every waking moment, racism effects a person of color in more ways than you can understand.”
Fools have no interest in understanding; they only want to air their own opinions.
There are times when it is hard to smile, for when I do the the pain shows through, but if not for this pain, would I know to fight? My pain is more than a physical sensation that is signaled from the body to the brain, it is a mental labyrinth of exhausting corridors of twist and turns in search of relief. As my pain begins to wake I frantically search for substances to fight off this invading force. As I search, I search with reckless abandon, for the time grows near as my pain begins to yawn and spread his outstretched arms, both signs of his impending rise. As I continue my fruitless search for a substance to kill my pain, my pain finds me instead. Now standing tall and towering over me I drop to my knees and begin pray…..
“Lord I pray that You take this pain that hasinvaded my body and send it back from whence it came, for the pain that I feel rises daily. Lord as my pain continues to take advantage of me I pray to You for relief, for I am in need of Your saving grace.”
He heals the broken-hearted and binds up their wounds.
As this cold world has its way with me I think of my mom while sitting in the fetal position, for I want to return to her inner warmth that once comforted me. The coldness that exist within this world today is a daily reminder that I outgrew the comfort that her womb provided, and that there is no going back. But with the Lord now in my life and His guiding scriptures leading the way I will be watchful, I will stand firm in faith, I will act like a man, and I will be strong.
“Be watchful, stand firm in the faith, act like men, be strong.”
Lord I am trying with all that I have to gain spiritual wisdom through Your scriptures, for I know they are the way to Your heart.Lord You have shown me that my days are numbered, but You have also shown me that salvation awaits. Lord my spirit is hungry, my spirit is restless, my spirit is anxious, but my spirit is also patient, for it knows that there is still work to be done. Lord as I gain wisdom through Your scriptures I am beginning to see things that I could not see prior to my spiritual awakening, for You have opened my eyes to things that the blind of this world cannot see. Lord I now know that I need You, for without You my thoughts roam and wander this unholy world aimlessly, like a lost child without direction. Lord with You now in my life I no longer wander aimlessly in search of, for You have shown me the way. As we walk together I hold Your hand and I squeeze tight, for there are those in this unholy world who have taken notice of the spiritual intimacy that we share through Your scriptures, and they want nothing more in this life than to disturb the peace that we share. Lord I cannot say enough about what You have done for me, how You have preserved me, how You have changed not only my life, but those closest to me, for You have opened their eyes to witness all that You have done for me.
“Oh give thanks to the Lord; call upon Hisname, make known His deeds among the peoples!”
I went from drinking alcohol for twenty-three straight years to a pre-made family without learning who truly I was, or who I wanted to become. Ten years ago I woke up as an adult, a husband, a step-father, a poppa, and a provider. After twenty-three long years in a state of drunkenness the fog that hovered over my thoughts began to slowly rise and clear over a period of time, and I came to the realization that the landscape that was once beneath my feet had changed, I woke up in a world not known to me, a sober, responsible, adult world. Although ten years has passed, I am still learning how to discipline, how to console, how to support, how to protect, how to teach, and how to raise kids that are not biologically mine, for there is a very thin line when it comes to raising children that belong to others. It truly feels as if I am in the beginning of what seems to be a life long process of learning how to manage, maintain, and protect my sanity, for my throat cancer battle has been having its way with me mentally for some time now. “Is it gone for good?” “Is that a lump that I feel?” “Did the cancer spread?” As my life moves forward my sanity is what I feel matters most, for I cannot take care of others if I cannot take care of myself, so I pray diligently for mental healing. Sympathy is not my objective as I expose my true inner thoughts to you in black and white, for I know that we all have our own issues in this life, but there may be someone out there facing the same physical and mental challenges that confront me daily, and I sincerely want that someone to know……
“And the Lord, He is the One who goes before you. He will be with you, He will not leave or forsake you; do not fear, nor be dismayed.”
Over the past three years I have learned that a persons curiosity may be attracted to the scars that one may have rather than the person that is associated with them. My scars belong to me, they are mine, and I take full ownership of them, for they represent the pain that come from this life. My scars do not hide, they are not bashful, they are arrogant and conscious of what they represent, for they represent acceptance, endurance, durability, patience, and faith. But there are some scars that are not as boastful or arrogant, for they stay hidden deep within the confines of the mind, they are the scars that hide behind the scenes unnoticed, camouflaged within the emotional insecurities that can develop mentally from the curiosity of others.
“I will give thanks to You,for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows this very well.”
“Lord I thank You for my scars that are of the body, and my emotional security that is of the mind.”
Be careful who you invite over your house for dinner, for there are many that will try to keep their bellies full, by feeding off of you…..
I appeal to you brothers, watch out for those who cause divisions and create obstacles contrary to the doctrine that you have been taught; avoid them. For such persons do not serve our Lord Christ, but their own appetites, and by smooth talk and flattery they deceive the hearts of the naive. For your obedience is known to all, so that I rejoice over you, but I want you to be wise as to what is good and innocent, as to what is evil.
Lord as we gather on this day of fellowshipI would like to thank You for opening our eyes to witness the truth that is within Your scriptures. Lord as we hold hands we are one in spirit encouraging one another and building one another up, and we will continue to do so, for Your scripture says:
“Therefore encourage one another and build one another up, just as you are doing.”