As I was sitting on the couch writing I could hear the television in the next room, and there was this married couple arguing over his or her inability to work. I caught the tail end of their discussion, ironically this is what I overheard. “What are you going to do now!” Coincidence? Maybe, if I believed in coincidences, twists of fate, luck, mere chance, happenstance, flukes, or anything else that man can conjure up. Things happen for a reason. Why do we call a car crash an accident? There was a reason why those two cars crashed into each other, whether minor or major, something or someone caused that car accident. “What are you going to do now? That question was meant for my ears only, as I look around to make sure there was no one else present. “I WILL REINVENT MYSELF!” That is basically what we do in life anyway, we adjust, we adapt, we grow, we evolve, we change. Reinvention is a necessity in this life.
I went to the crossroad
Fell down on my knees
Asked the Lord above
Have mercy on me now
Save poor Bob, if you please
“Crossroad Blues”- Robert Johnson
My life is at a crossroad, I am a 51 year old man full of uncertainty. What is my next role! Do I play the role of a middle aged black man that was recently informed that he can no longer work in his profession due to a plethora of medical injuries? Do I play the role of a successful middle aged man that successfully changes his work career? Do I play the role of a depressed, down on his luck, down on himself, mad at the world, always me, if it wasn’t for you, I did everything on my own for years type of man? Do I play the role of the town drunk who lost his family because he fell off of the old wagon? Or, do I take the longest recurring role role in history, “THE ANGRY BLACK MAN?” There are many casting calls, but not all casting calls should be answered, choose wisely. I will not let my moral value depreciate like those of a starving actor. I refuse to accept the roles that shine a light on the degradation and the degeneracy of black women and children. I also refuse to accept any roles that portray the black man as inferior, uncommitted, monstrous, incarcerated, lazy, philandering, drug dealing, uneducated, and faithless. I refuse to be negatively type casted, I will only accept roles that shine a light on my passion for equality, justice, independence, education, family, prosperity, faith, and the never ending pursuit of freedom!