In the last twelve years I have been what most would call “LUCKY,” but I would disagree with that assessment, for I truly believe that the Lord has been my protector. He has been with me through it all, for I now stand tall because of his grace and mercy. I have my reasons for my belief in the Lord, for the Lord has given me a true testimony to share, so “MY THOUGHTS I SHARE WITH YOU!”
October 12, 2010
I had a previous encounter with death prior to the car accident and the cancer diagnosis. In 2007 I had a major heart attack which they call the “WIDOW MAKER.” I experienced something that I could not explain at the time, but it has been revealed since. I’ll explain. I was a thirty-eight year old Black man that was mentally and physically unfit, I had been feeling some discomfort in my chest for a few weeks prior to my heart attack, but I just wrote it off as heartburn. Then one day I noticed that my heartburn was becoming more intense, something kept telling me to go to the hospital, but I decided to go to the movies with my wife instead. While eating quadruple butter popcorn, about half way through the movie I felt a dull pain in my chest and I began to sweat profusely, my mouth became desert dry, and the fluid in my eyes dried out. I will try to explain what happened next, but one may not understand if one is a non believer, for what the Lord gave me was not of this world. As I began to pray a feeling of calmness flushed my being, there was no pain, and no worries, but most of all no doubts or fears. I felt as if the chains were no longer holding me back, I was being set free!
March 22, 2017
At approximately 4:15 am I was driving on the freeway on my way to work, the roads were wet, for the rain had previously left its mark earlier that morning. There were hardly any vehicles on the freeway, but out of nowhere a car cut me off, I started spinning out of control and I crashed into the middle divider coming to a complete stop. With the airbag being deployed from the impact, damaging my eye in the process, I became disoriented. Thinking my car was on fire from the smoke that the airbag generated I exited my car looking for safety, and while doing so, at that very moment my car was hit in the rear causing it to hit me in the face as I stood in front of it. Somehow I was sucked and pinned beneath my car face up for an hour and fifteen intense, thought provoking, unknowing, loving, maturing, growing, and spiritual minutes that I have ever experienced under any condition. While I was pinned underneath my car I was struck by two other vehicles that hit their target about five minutes apart. The wait in between those collisions, in a strange way, it was the most alive that I have ever been in my life. “HE IS UNDER THE CAR,” he screamed. Shortly after a tow truck pulled up. “Will I bleed out? Was my first concern as the tow truck started to lift my car slowly off me, so I started praying. I woke up two weeks later in critical condition, I had an over abundance of injuries, I was not quite out of the woods. My injuries were quite extensive. I suffered a broken right shoulder, a dislocated left shoulder, broken jaw in three places, damaged left eye, lost many teeth, lacerated liver, broke right femur bone, dislocated right knee, compound fracture of right shin, broke right ankle, have metal in 90% of right leg, road rash down to muscle in left leg, burns on face from hot underbelly of car, broke all ribs on right side, broke three ribs on left, punctured both lungs, and I fractured my skull which has left me with brain shattering headaches, and seizures that will accompany me for the rest of my visit here on earth. I now know with the Lords help, support and prayers from family and friends, is how I survived. During my life span searching seemed to be a constant, whether it was love, shelter, work, money, fairness, peace of mind, honesty, drive, or simply an identity. But there are times when you come across something more than what you were looking for, or should I say something “GREATER” than what you were looking for. On the fateful morning of March 22, 2017 I found something greater than what I was searching for, “I FOUND THE LORD!”
June 17, 2017
During my rehabilitation I asked my primary doctor about a lump on the side of my neck that had me concerned, but she insisted that it was a swollen lymph node brought on by the stress of my car accident. My wife and I decided to go to a throat specialist, and to our surprise, it was throat cancer stage four. It took a few minutes to digest the prognosis, but we kept our composure and put our trust in the Lord. With the cancer taking the higher priority, “WE” had to stop my rehabilitation and concentrate on “OUR” cancer concerns. “WELCOME TO THE WORLD OF CANCER” were my first words spoken as I finally had time to converse with my own thoughts. I was part of a new club, separate from the rest of the world. I had a feeling of isolation, and somewhat desperation, emotions that were to heavy for me to carry on my own, so I prayed and gave all the weight to the Lord. I thought I could not carry anymore weight, but my beautiful mother passed away from cancer. This is what brings us to this juncture at this time, for it is not mere coincidence that we are sharing this moment together, for it was already written.
I have my reasons to believe!