“YOU ARE NOT ALONE”

Lord I need you! I am experiencing marital discord at this time in my life, my concerns have nothing to do with desires of the flesh, but I need your help. Lord I did not give myself enough time to heal mentally after drinking for such a long period of time. I went from drinking for twenty-three straight years, to a pre-made family without learning who I was, or who I wanted to become. My wife married another person ten years ago, for I am not the same man that she fell in love with, and I have come to accept this as a fact. As the fog that hovered over my thoughts began to slowly rise and clear over time, my eyes began to view the world from a different perspective. I make no excuse for my insufficiencies as a husband, but I am trying to be the best husband that I can possibly become despite my personal struggles, and the Lord knows this to be true, for he knows my heart. Over the last ten years I have been trying to learn who I truly am, I have been trying to learn how to be a husband. I have been trying learning how to be a step-father. I have been trying to learn how to be a Poppa. I have been trying to learn how I should talk, discipline, console, support, and raise kids that are not biologically mine, for it is a thin line when dealing with those that belong to others. I have been trying to learn how to deal with my physical disabilities after the car accident. I have been learning how to deal with my mental issues after my stage 4 throat cancer battle, “Is it gone for good?” “Is that a lump that I feel?” “Did the cancer spread?” I have been learning how to manage my stress and anxiety, for it can become overwhelming at times, especially when one wakes up to a new reality after being sleep for twenty-three years. Sympathy is not my objective as I expose my inner feelings to you, for we all have our own issues in life, but there may be someone out there going through struggles such as mine, and I want that someone to know………

DO NOT BE AFRAID OR TERRIFIED, FOR YOU ARE NOT ALONE, UNLESS YOU CHOOSE TO BE.”

DAME

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