Well the time has come for my two year throat cancer check up, if they give me the all clear I will not have to get another for five years. I feel good, but my thoughts are beginning their journey to a familiar place, a place that they know all to well, a place called fear. It has been hard for me to sleep, it has been hard for me to think, and it has been hard for me to write, as memories from my past continue to haunt me.
Three years ago….
“I am sorry to inform you Mr. O’Bannon, but you have stage 4 for throat cancer.”
As my thoughts continue their faithless journey I begin to pray:
Lord I thank you for the last three years of my life, for I know that I have been blessed with continued preservation. Lord I pray that you set me free from the worldly fears that hold me hostage. Lord I grab my Bible in my moment of weakness, for I know that Your scriptures and my fears cannot occupy the same space. As I open my Bible my moment of weakness is no more, for Your scriptures give me a strength that this world knows not of.
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my right hand.”