Three years ago I had a life altering car accident, I was also diagnosed with stage four throat cancer that same year. One of the many injuries that I sustained in my car accident was a broken jaw. I broke my jaw in three places and I lost many teeth, I also received three metal plates which required fifteen screws to hold my jaw together. I know that I am blessed to be alive, but during these past three years I have been having issues with my gums, for the radiation from my throat cancer has weakened them to the point of me needing my remaining teeth extracted. The teeth that my car accident did not take away from me, the radiation has taken the leftovers. There were times when I would look in the mirror and a tear or two would fall, for me standing alone staring at my truth was a painful sight to behold. This past month I had what was left of my upper teeth extracted, the plan is to get dentures to replace them, upper and lower. I have been trying hard to maintain my weight which is not much, for I weigh a hundred and thirty-two pounds on a good day. The mask that we must wear I once thought was a blessing, for the need to hide the emptiness within my mouth was what mattered most to me. My thoughts were selfish in a way they have never been before, and I truly apologize for my unholy selfishness. At this present time I am not in that selfish state of mind, for the Lord has given me what matters most, for He has given Himself. I now see things as they should be seen, which is through His eyes and not my own. As I now look in the mirror a smile comes upon my face, and my tears that once fell, they no longer fall.
He keeps a smile on my face…..