Lord I would like to pray for us all but it is a challenge, for my blackness has been through 400 hundred years of mental and physical pain inflicted by the wicked of this world, pain that is not easily forgiven. Lord I find it difficult to pray for those who have found me guilty without a trial because of the color of my skin, their worldly hate, my anger, forgiveness I know not of at this time in my life. Lord the anger that rages from deep within is inherited, it is generational, and it is vengeful. Lord I fight daily to conquer this anger, this rage, for a good man I am beneath my hated exterior, but Lord I also feel that my anger is needed for me to survive in this unholy world although Your Scriptures tell me otherwise: “Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath! Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil.” (Psalm 37:8) “But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If anyone slaps you on the cheek, turn to them the other one also.” (Mathew 5:39) Lord at this time in my young spiritual life I find it difficult to refrain from anger, forsake wrath, and turn to them the other cheek, despite knowing the unholy outcome that will come to pass if I do not adhere to Your Words of Truth. Lord I pray that You take this anger from me before my departure from this earth, I also pray that You hear my silent cries for guidance and direction, for I know that many miles lie ahead of me on my journey towards forgiveness.
“But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.”