Lord You continue to bless me with life, but as of late I have not been living, I keep myself hidden from the outside world not wanting to be seen, I have created a world all to myself, a dark and lonely world. To experience life one must be an active participant within it, one must live, and Lord, I want to live again. Lord ever since my car accident and my battle with throat cancer I have been afraid and discouraged to venture outside, so in my room I stay with drapes closed, iPad in hand, writing in the shadows, Lord, I want to live again. Lord my wife and I want to experience life outside of these walls as we once did, we want to go on long drives and explore this world You have blessed us with, we want to hold hands and look in each others eyes while we stroll through the park, we want to sit at the beach as the sun sets thinking only of that moment, we want to fly away but my fear of heights grounds me, so close to home I stay while she is away, help me Lord, I want to live again. There is more to this life than being in fear and hiding in the shadows behind closed doors, this is I know to be true, for not long ago courage I carried with me always, Lord, I want to live again. Lord as I purge to many a sense of accomplishment I feel, for it takes courage to exhale in black and white for others to inhale as I do now, it takes someone who is not afraid to expose himself openly, but most of all, it takes You, Lord, I want to live again.
“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you or forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”
Lord, I want to live again……